What is more useful in life, sleep or surfing the internet? Well, if one chanced to check my life it might lead him/her to answer the later choice. What is it about this thing... this vast wealth of knowledge, facts, fun, and (quite unfortunately) porn... that causes you to sit cross eyed in front of your large monitor and soak in all that you can get. Oh I'll just check up on some of my favorite sites, then I'll go to bed. That's what I tell myself. Then I find myself here, 4:45am on Wednesday morning. Why the hell am I not asleep? Perhaps I'll just end up there for things done here. (Luckily that statement is false, considering my new creation status) And now I'm even wasting more time by writing, and I'll just tell you, I am not the fastest typer out there so this can take some time.

I must talk about tonight though. Why is it that the little things often mean so much to us? So instead of doing anything productive around the apartment tonight I decided to join some friends at Alley Katz and bowl to my hearts delight. Tuesday night Quarter Mania is a great thing. While they do get you with the 10 buck cover charge I was able to bowl 4 games for a good deal less than I would normally be able to. Which is a good thing, because no matter how much money you spend, if it's less that what would normally cost you it screams out "DO IT!" I couldn't help myself. Which is ok in this situation because I bowled my best round in like forever. The second game was nice to me, and after bowling a 105 the first game, I came back to score a 148, my second highest ever. Needless to say I was rather thrilled at beating my esteemed collegue Josh Doody by one pin and thoroughly ravaging my other collegue Allen Williams. I discount that Chris Bontempo was ever there because he is descended from bowling blood. That is an unfair advantage. Kin hurling large stones down a lane in one's past is cause for disqualification. But we still love you Chris.

The more I really think about it, the more I find that I have been doing everything in my power these past couple of days or week to not do anything of consequence. I have Spring Fever. School has become a canker sore to my soul. I dispise it. But unfortunately it must be done. Hopefully I can squeeze by and get the grades. I made the comment to someone earlier today that I could not really call myself a student. For while I do take classes here, I am less than studious in them. I could really care less right now. Woah, but that's gotta change or I might be in a load of crap real soon.

On a final note, it was mentioned that while reading this page a person (who shall remain nameless, but told that he/she is incredibly cool) thought that it was very dark and brooding. Well, you know what? Yeah, it is. Let's just call this Graham's outlet site. So that he can maintain sanity in the real world, he will outlet emotion in the digital one. Like I said to this person: "I live the good and write about the bad". I really hope that this just gives people a more well rounded view of myself than they would get otherwise. While sometimes things are made vague to keep this from becoming some nasty gossip page, I try to be straight up. Honestly folks, I want to be this open. It's just hard to do that face to face sometimes. Let me know how you all feel perhaps, that is, if you all want to be as good as I am... er... what am I talking about? I'm a mess. Don't try to be like me. Walk my talk and not my walk, if you understand what I'm saying. I'm trying to do the same.

'the stars have always called out my name
but the man they want never stays the same
I'm sorry to be so fragile and incomplete
I guess some things will never change'