I hate feeling bad about myself. I don't think there anything more depressing than knowing that you are the cause of your own depression. I'm not sure if that made any sense but that's just the way it is. A self reciprocating cylce of depression. Things are bad, I'm not making them any better. And it sucks that nothing anyone says can help you. "Yeah, I know how you feel" is probably the single most usless statement in the world at times like this. And yet I find myself using it all the time, which does not encourage me at all. I don't really know why this is all coming down on me today, chalk it up to a shitty day I guess.